Calm

The anxiety I've lived with for so long is gone - I'm not biting my nails, my heart isn't racing, I'm not waking up in flight or flight, I feel centered and - dare I say it? - happy. When I say "so long", I mean 60 years, not the past few years, which have probably been the most stressful time of my life. I've struggled with anxiety, though, for my whole life - the result of living with 2 narcissistic parents, a golden child (WWW), a couple of flying monkeys, some winkies,and (thankfully) some wonderful, loving, real siblings with whom I can be myself in all my messiness. This non-anxiousness is so calm that it's almost disturbing. Hurrah!